I am the Opposite of Poetry - a poem

I Am The Opposite Of Poetry

I am unfocused
All over the place
constantly contradicting, hypothesizing, not following through
I cancel on people
I'm careless, wasteful, selfish, unfinished
I'm not synthesized.
I withhold interesting light bulbs, regurgitate. spew everywhere. the wrong thing.
Sometimes I say
Please and thank
You and sometimes
The only thing I
Can think about
Is myself and
How hungry I am
And how I'll
Do whatever
It takes
Including
The food
Off your
Plate
I get embarrassed.
Poetry doesn't get embarrassed.
Poetry doesn't try as hard as I do.
And I like myself but
Not enough to
Pick out the
Words that
Harmonize
And dispose
Of the
Ones that
Just don't
Fit or
Belong or
Misrepresent.
I am the vomit of poetry.
A reaction that occurs when you
Consume the wrong
Thing. Too much of something,
Too much of the wrong thing
Something usually uncontrollable,
Smells awful, used to be
Something whole but it's
Worth it for that feeling I
Get when it's all over. The end.
And my mom give me 7UP and Saltines.